How do you perceive yourself? B/C I'm Hot apparently.

Long story explained much earlier on, I was the ugly chubby kid growing up.

But now... somehow... I'm more attractive now, but I just can't see it at times.

For example...

After starting my life changing journey I started to notice something, I've stopped caring about how guys see me, and suddenly guys are falling all over themselves to go out with me the past few weeks.

Last night, I went out dressed as a sexy referee, and I felt great! And I knew I looked good... and judging from the response it rendered...

(an invitation to join an improv troupe I've really been trying hard to get onto... and guys from the troupe practically fighting each other to get a picture with me... and many, many, compliments on how phenomenal I looked... and then today I got a text from my friend rachel who brought her friend dan to the improv show saying "Ha, how was the party? Also dan wants your number because you're fun and hot lol. what do you want me to do with that?")


But when I got home and looked at the pictures... I don't see that super hot girl that everyone else saw... I still feel, well.... chubby and unsexy...

I'm starting to think perception is really an odd duck. I wish I could see myself through another one's eyes. Just for a day.



Now, to explain this dan guy... he and rach invited me to go see his hockey game after comedy but I had plans to hang out with the improv guys as I'm trying to gain the attention of one guy in particular, so I didn't pay much attention to dan all night really...

He was short (arg) but cute, and I told rachel how I ran out on my date the other night right in front of him and we all laughed... but I also expressed interest in the other comic in front of him too.

When he invited me to the game I was in the ref costume so I said... "Oh, in THIS? God, If I went I'd (blew my whistle) and declare this team the winner" (I said sexily) The funny thing was, whenever I'd blow my whistle and let it fall from my lips, it landed in my cleavage.... which also added to the hilarity.

Then he told me "I wouldn't do that if I were you, because those guys would just throw you over their shoulder and haul you to the locker room" mmm.

Didn't sound like such a bad idea to me! :P *wink*

Haha, but really, I probably should have gone to the hockey night as the guy I like is lame and STILL did not come socialize after the show, but that is how I got the guys to swear up and down they would try to get me into the troupe prior to february "auditions".

Oh! I also got a great compliment from the guys I perform improv with in another venue and they said I am easily one of the best girl comedians. They said it and they meant it. And I know they meant it rather than trying to blow air up my skirt, which was nice.


So overall, the night was a success. I caught the hot guy I want looking at me before he looked away nervously... and got many compliments, and a potential chance at getting into the troupe w/o an audition.

skewed perception or not... boobs rock!


~Fun